Having a Relationship with GOD!

Yes! Finally awake! Satisified with my sleep and back on here to address the Blogspot World yet again! How exciting! Let's Do it!

This afternoon, I wanted to talk about my struggles with Christianity and having a solid relationship with God. I've been properly trying since Year 12 back in 2006 to get this right but, unfortunately, I found, we're never going to get it right or perfect the art of Christianity. Well basically because, Christianity wasn't meant to be easy, it wasn't meant to be an art or something you could perfect also a relationship with God is like any relationship with a friend or family member, you're going to have your ups and downs, hard part is that, we always fail and God stays true and faithful to us always. But it's the matter of continuing to attempt and try and to be positive and never give up. Best lesson I ever learnt was that, when you fail then give your life back to God, the next time you fail, you won't fall down as far as you did the time before. You just got to keep trying! Don't give up! Be positive!

Oh and just to add,
Technically, Christianity and having a relationship with God aren't the same thing, Christianity is known to be a religion to the world, but to Christian's Christianity isn't a religion but a relationship with God.

Back in Year 12 on September 3rd, 2006, I felt like I gave my life back to God that night during a Planetshakers Conference, Reggie Dabbs a great inspiring pastor was preaching directly about our emotions of being broken and worthless and pin pointed my sins and struggles that night which made me reach out and look upon the face of God for redemption. After two weeks, that flame died and I was back to my normal self. Taking in different substances and hazardful liquids, swearing like it was my 2nd language, rebelling against my parents and the list goes on, bottom line is, I was back to where I was in the matter of two weeks. Sound familiar to anyone?

It always happens to us, we find it so hard to adapt to a new life because we've lived a so-called unrighteous life for too long that being new and well righteous seems like a different and harder battle. I found at the time, that I rather have had other people as my opponents than having to fight myself.

What I mean by this is? It was so much easier to poison other peoples hearts by my actions and words, and being my bad self, then trying to be good because when we've given our lives back to God and surrended everything to him, there's a spiritual battle going on in our hearts, Satan and God are in the middle of fighting for your soul and it's not everyone else suffering, it's just you.
How selfish! But that's how I used to think. I was looking out for number one and I failed.
Another thing is, I found that I didn't even try to begin a relationship with God, I mean I never closed my eyes and talked to him in prayer, I never opened up my bible to meditate on his word and basically I didn't do anything to build that relationship with Him.
There's a sermon I listened to one time that talked about giving your life to God during an altar call. This man dubbed it to be an emotion that you felt for one night. During that night we feel the music of the band playing, we feel the atmosphere of where we are, but it's just an emotion that you felt for that one night. You made the promise to change, but after that night you'd be back to where you were in the beginning, that's not always the case, but it is to the ones who don't try after making that promise to God.
God can't reach out to you unless you let him but it's a two way thing just like any relationship you have to reach out to him if you want your relationship with God to work.

But just this year, my way of thinking changed. After my car accident, I decided to develop that relationship with God again. But after I surrended everything to him, it was then that I realised everything at the beginning of this blog post, I never really tried all those times that I gave my life back to God. So I wanted to try it out. I pray every night, I just sit there praying for confession, thanksgiving and the things that I think I'm in need of and for the world and I talk to God about how life is for me at the moment, I try to read the bible now, it's our sword of life, it's our Basic.Instructions.Before.Leaving.Earth. It's so important! I mean, this is the way God replies to our prayers and needs. I even had my first real devotion with one of my good friends, if you feel awkward having a bible devotion on your own, seriously, it doesn't hurt to call someone up to help you. I even read a bible verse before I sing for praise and worship on Sunday mornings and I try to read a bible verse every single day. It really does help, because God will see and know that you're trying your best to wanting and having a relationship with Him.

So why does that flame go out after you've promised to give your life back to God, and after you've surrended everything to him, simple, we don't TRY to develop that relationship with GOD.

I mean, like I said in the beginning of this blog post, it's never easy, it's not an art that we can perfect. We're going to have our ups and downs just like any relationship here on Earth. I mean, sometimes the old Edsanity comes out to play, I get my anger outbursts, I may swear sometimes accidentally, I might still smoke cigarettes, but as long as your trying, and as long as you feel guilty about what you're doing, change is already on it's way. I mean, I was afraid that I wasn't changing because I kept having these slips and bumps along the way of trying to build on my relationship with God, but just like any relationship here on Earth, we're going to fail sometimes, it's just the matter of getting yourself back up. Like an old saying goes, "It doesn't matter how many times you fall, it only matters how many times you get back up."

Like, when you've been something for so long, when you've known a life dedicated to sin, and you make this extravagant change into trying to be someone innocent and sinless, trust me, it's hard, once again, it's God and Satan battling for my soul and my heart, but you know what, let Satan try, if God is with us, who could ever be against us? Right? Be positive! Learn to love, care, rejoice, do everything and anything to be positive and righteous, to people who thinks sins COOL, hate to say it but, that's like you're saying Satan's cool, and it's like your taking a stand that your following him. And if you think I'm uncool, cause I now live and breathe the word of God, well then I'm uncool, and I'm happy with that. Because when my life was with Satan, it led me to perish and death, NOW, with my life in God's hands, simple way to put it: MY LIFE is ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT!



Until Next time!