Careless mistake

Verse One:
Tonight, it starts to change
I re-arrange, my thoughts and actions
And once again, I see the light
It's calling out to me
This very moment
A careless mistake
Changes a life

Pre-Chorus
You don't have to remind me
It's always on my mind.

CHORUS:
And I'm just fine
Living life like this
I can't get back
The moments that I missed
It won't go, just fall asleep
I'm drifting away, I'm into deep
I'm just fine
This world was never mine

Verse Two:
Haunting, all of my dreams
I start to scream, I cry as well
It's my hell, the fire tickle me slowly
Move in worry, and fear
The devil lurks, but the spirit moves him away
Come back another day

Pre-Chorus
Stand in my shoes
See how well you do

CHORUS:
And I'm, just, fine
Living life like this
I can't get back
The moments that I missed
It, won't go, just fall asleep
I'm drifting, away, I'm into deep
I'm just fine
This world was never mine

BRIDGE:
I see judgmental eyes
I hear their mouthful of lies
They don't hear my cries
For my tears just dry
C'mon just give it a try
Forget don't regret

CHORUS:
And I'm, just, fine
Living life like this
I can't get back
The moments that I missed
It, won't go, just fall asleep
I'm drifting, away, I'm into deep
I'm just fine
I'm just fine

Outro:
This world was never mine
This world was never kind
Myself I got to find
This moment, changed my life.



Careless mistake, it definitely was. I wasn't thinking at the time of my car accident. I don't really like to talk much about it but it revolves around everything that I do in my life now. When I have to take public transport home from work, or when people have to bring me to places like church, youth group and band practice and social events, or having to watch what I do at party's, bars, clubs and lounges. I also started trying to play the guitar and I played this tune that sounded real depressing so I wanted to write a song about the struggles I've been going through lately.

This song is pretty self-explanatory but just to break it up a little. Verse One is basically about me sitting in the car after it happened knowing that everything was about to change in my life. Verse Two is about what's been happening, I can't escape that night because it consumes me and it drives me crazy. The Pre-chourses, is sort of telling people that I don't need to be reminded of what I done because it kills me everyday. The CHORUS is about me trying to be strong through it all, knowing that now I'm not ontop of the world and that it was never mine to begin with. The BRIDGE 'I see judgmental eyes' I see the way people looked at me when they found out about what I did and it hurt. 'I hear their mouthful of lies' basically to me it's meant to mean the people who still put me down while I'm trying to get back to my feet. 'They don't hear my cries, for my tears just dry' just because until now, I never liked announcing and declaring these feelings I have. But yeah 'C'mon give it a try, forget don't regret'. It's me finally letting it out.

Guess it's just a chance for the world to see. Don't wait until it gets to this point where you need to live with your mistakes and your burdens before you realise that you NEED God. No matter if you're happy but you feel empty or if you do feel that disconnection of God, make sure you seek God during the moments of emptiness and disconnection, for Life without God, is a Life with Satan. But of course no matter the circumstances, good or bad always seek God in everything you do.

You CAN'T Run and You CAN'T Hide.

It's a diversion, a coping mechanism that we play out in our minds and in our actions. Why do we deny, lie and avoid reality? Why do we escape and run away? Why are we so afraid? If we are, what are we really scared of? The future? What that person might say or how they might react? or is about how you'll be stereotyped and perceived perhaps?

We run away from what we have to do or say. But why can't we just do what we have to do and say what we have to say?
The world's coming to an end very soon. What's going to happen when you realise that what you should have done and what you should have said, is too late now?
Why should it matter what anyone says about you? Do we still not understand that when the time comes they won't be judging you on that faithful day. But that, God will?

We sometimes try to escape and deny who we really are, until it comes to the point where we don't even know who we really are anymore. We become lost. We lose our focus and our goals, for we've lived in denial and in a lie for too long. We've run so far ahead that we don't even know how to get back through the jungles and forrests and obstacles that we have passed. We left no tracks behind for we brought the things we deny and our lies with us while we ran away.

Why can't we face the music instead of dodging passed every problem. Don't we know that once we've faced a battle that we become stronger than we were before it? If we faced the music and faced the battle, we wouldn't lose our identities, but instead, we'd gain control, direction and wisdom from God. But of course, our negative minds causes us to fear the problem and fear the outcome.

Once we accept what's in front of us, we can move on and defeat it, with God's strength, wisdom and might. Don't escape then feel trapped. There's no point to it. We must stop relying on our own understandings and other people.
Why be afraid? Do we still not understand that God has always been with us since the very beginning and that he'll be with us until the very end, through our fears, problems and everything we do in our lives?

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