Proverbs 3:5-6

Proverbs 3:5-6
TRUST in the Lord, with all of your heart and lean not on your own understandings but acknowledge Him in all your ways and He will direct your paths.

For the last couple of weeks I've been living by this bible verse. I believe that it's the hardest thing trying something that you're not used too. It's such a restricting and uncomfortable feeling. But I guess that's what a new creation is all about, that's the beauty of change. I believe that everything that's happened lately has gotten me to realise that relying on my own strengths and my own understandings is a path for self destruction and disappointment and same goes for relying on other people around you. I believe that, it's something that I've been struggling with for a very long time. I've been so used to approaching other people with my problems or trying my hardest to defeat things on my own that it's become normal to me. But what I found was, disappointments. It's always difficult facing the fact that your love ones can't always be there for you. But it's a very selfish thought thinking that they can. When the ones who love you disappoint you, it brings you to loneliness and thoughts of negativity therefore you try to rely on your own strength, but like I said when you fail in your temptation or problem, self destruction comes walking in. The simple truth is that, God can provide all of our needs if we trust and believe that He will provide all of our needs. For the last few weeks, when things have come up with incidents that connect with my car accident, I've forgotten everything around me and I've learnt to just talk to God about everything. But my biggest fear is that it may isolate me from other people now, and as emotional as it sounds, I'm afraid of being disappointed, but I know that My God will never forsake me and that he'll always be there when I need Him. And basically, He is all that I need to get me through the hardest and darkest of times.